Good, Bad &.... Lovely

One of my seniors in my college penned in ma diary (we were not so feminine to afford a slam book) "its hard to have an opinion about someone and even harder to share that".... I always thought of it as stylish lines to jot in a slam books but few days back I realized that it's a fact of life, specially the second part of the style line.
Past few days were one of the most confused days of ma life. I might sound stupid but i was thinking about an opinion someone has about me. I never thought seriously about having so many friends but still I do have some and trust me all those living beings considered as my friends are close to my heart beats. Mbaz n Sanz are the most OPEN friends who never give a second thought in giving a feedback specially when they don't like it in me.
I have been crowned as "Lonely Dog", Sadoo, Sadist, Crazy, Hard Core Stupid, Negative Thinker, Biased..... but no one in my entire life declared me as an Attitude Man.
I ain't trying to be self praised miyaan mitthu but I always try efficiently to be a NICE GUY. One of the reason for that is I am not BAD. I would like to quote it again... I am not saying that I am a GOOD guy but yes I know that I am not BAD.
there is a problem with me that I don't explain the things specifically when they have been misunderstood or inferred in some stupid way. Base line of such a long prescript becomes the Title of Confusion - Is Being Good, a Bad thing?

I met a family few months back. Trust me, its really hard to have such family in cities like Delhi. I have been as Nice as I am with my nucleus family. There are few personal and social reasons behind it... but the fact remains unchanged that I have been very nice.

My near and dear friends would second me on it that I don't do a lot so called unethical things. Few of them would say that I am a FOOL that I don't do it... but its a different topic all together.

I don't do it, coz i don't like it.

But now time and society & someone..... raises a question in front of me... what is the use of not being drunk on every second night, not watching porn sites, profiles on orkut all night, not calling up all those professional agents who provide this sexual sickness, not imagining a nude idol after looking at every single feminine creature, not doing every single act of kindness with some stupid motive, not giving any importance to my sleep (coz i was busy with my sickness all night... and no matter how important occasion was for that someone), not inviting anyone on dinner just to have a feeling of being with females, not behaving irresponsible every time, not taking people granted, not hurting by saying ANYTHING even though there is lot to say.......

No one expects to get something out of being good.... Its just personal happiness and basic characteristics which leads a man but at the same time crown of ATTITUDE MAN is not acceptable also.

once MBaz said that there are so many things in me to improve upon in order to survive.... I am still trying to change each and everything in me up to possible and acceptable limits. I tried a lot but couldn't help my self to stop people hating me.....

In each phase of my life, I have a learnt a single lesson inevitably every single time....

Expectation leads to Frustration... no matter from whom you expected... :)